Saturday, September 6, 2008Y
hais. why am I still thinking about it?
why did I think did I really love him?
whats the point of thinking about when I know its impossible at all.
& when I already choose to give up?
sorry that I lied about I had give up about you already.
I lied just because I don't want to get hurt anymore.
Im tired of you asking me "have you forgotten me?"
& I will end up crying.
Im tired of trying to talk to you when you don't even want to talk to me.
Im tired of being ignored by you.
so I lied.
because I want to be your friend.
yes. I thought it was easy to be your friend.
& I ended up knowing that the one who cannot be friends is me.
why is it so hard to give up?
tell me how?
I don't know how.
maybe because I don't want to.
beside the fact I know we are impossible.
nothing else tell me I should give up.
I find you are really a nice guy.
I love the way you are.
I hope you won't ignore me again if you get to read this.
but if you do, I can't do anything anymore.
Im so tired to be a one-sided friend which I was once in secondary school.
like a fool.
I know I shouldn't post this up.
but I really can't keep it in my heart anymore.
I don't want to love anymore.
its so tiring.
& its all my fault.
Im sorry.
I should keep it to myself.
I shouldn't confess to you.
Im sorry for all the awkward-ness that I created.
loving you was a mistake.
telling you was another mistake.
Im sorry, but I couldn't help it.
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